She is a picture of peace and contentment…until you look a bit closer.
The hair under her chin is matted with the liquid antibiotic she’s been taking for two weeks… she fights me every time I try to give her another dose and spews it back on her own fur.
There is one shaved leg where the IV for her surgery went in.
She sleeps lightly, wondering when I’m coming to force her into the carrier for another terrifying ride or force two syringes of meds down her throat.
She can’t go outside and thinks using a cat box is the height of humiliation.
She doesn’t have as many teeth as she used to have.
She doesn’t quite understand that all this pain and disruption was to save her life.
I worry that she won’t trust me anymore.
The easy theological application here is that God often puts us in places of pain and confusion, but He does so for “our good and His glory”and we should trust Him in those times.
This is true.
What I wonder about, however, is how God feels when He puts us through those necessary, but painful trials.
There is a doctrine in classical theism that addresses this…it’s called the doctrine of “impassibility”
“It is the doctrine that God does not have passions or emotions. It is also stated that since God does not change, he is, therefore, not emotionally affected by what happens in our world. More specifically, it is the doctrine that God does not experience pain or pleasure due to the actions of others.”
I don’t buy it anymore.
God is love and love that is not relational is not love at all.
Now, I don’t believe that God is ever surprised or shaken by events here, but neither can I conceive of a parent that doesn’t feel things deeply when their children are involved.
That’s why all the way through this trial He showed Himself strong for me.
Veterinary care is expensive and there was no room in my budget for any care at all, let alone an emergency room visit, surgery, and medication.
As each challenge came, He (in my mind, miraculously) provided for it.
While I was caring for Miss Kitty, He was providing for me.
He was demonstrating love and concern for me, not just executing a holy decree.
I wonder if He was concerned that I wouldn’t trust Him anymore.
I wonder why I am learning the same lessons as my cat…
He loves you.
Your feelings matter to Him.
You matter to Him.
Make your own application…