In the last decade the dearly departed Chester and Miss Kitty weren’t just pets, they were friends that stuck closer than a brother… friends who brought incredible comfort, companionship, and joy into some very hard years.
They are gone now and I miss them more than it’s proper to admit.
Smokey is still with me, but Smokey is not like those who lived here before.
Smokey loves me…I think…but life has taught Smokey to be very wary of love.
He is here, but almost always on the periphery.
I leave my door open so he can come and go as he pleases.
He stays mostly outside, coming in to eat or to be protected from thunder and raccoons.
When the danger passes, he goes back out.
He likes to be petted, but he always ducks his head when you first touch him…somebody used their hand to harm him and that memory never leaves him.
He eats quickly, always with an eye on the door.
He often is waiting to greet me when I return from somewhere, then runs away when I try to greet him back.
Now and again he’ll jump up on the bed and start kneading and purring, almost desperate for affection, then bolt when it feels too safe.
Life has taught the Big Smoke that when you feel safe, bad things happen.
I can relate…
Smokey can’t be of much “emotional support”…he’s just trying to get though the day the best way he knows how.
I still care for him and love him just as I did those who were here before him…and hope that one day… for his sake… he can receive all that I have for him.
Some of us are a lot like Smokey…except we live our lives on the periphery of Gods love.
Perhaps we have been wounded by those who claimed to be His people or we have been crushed by circumstances we thought He could have changed.
We stay within running distance of Him, but never rest in His presence in security.
There are times when we jump towards Him desperate for fatherly affection and love, then bolt when it feels too safe.
Life has taught us that when we feel safe, bad things happen.
God is good even when His people and circumstances aren’t.
He never moves away from us and is always present and willing to receive us in love, hope, and forgiveness.
He prays for us that we might one day receive all He has for us and find rest in Him.
The door is always open.
I believe, help my unbelief.
Make your own application…